The Sundial Bridge and the Sacramento River
My husband and his daughter went for a walk while I remained at home to care for my knee.
We're expecting a high of 97 today. The temperatures are gradually decreasing, but just like in other regions, we experience those false autumns - followed by another week of summer. The battle for Fall begins, but in the end, Autumn always prevails.
I’ve noticed that the sun is positioned lower in the sky, which indicates more shade, and sunset is arriving earlier. Another subtle indication that fall is on its way.
I’ve been giving my knee (the back of my knee) some rest, and it’s showing positive results. The swelling on the front of my knee has gone down. Yesterday turned out to be a very good knee day, but this morning I’m back to some soreness again. I have missed swimming and last night’s fellowship dinner. The couple lives on a steep hillside, which would have been hard for my knee to navigate. I really need to give it time to recover. I've already notified the BSF Admin that I will require assistance with arranging the chairs in my room.
Okay I admit it...
I’m feeling somewhat discouraged. I know I will overcome this challenge and emerge stronger from it. It just feels like the older we get, the more challenges life throws our way. It's almost as if each year brings a new twist or hurdle to tackle!
Welcome to the Journey
The cardiologist contacted me and has arranged for the implanted loop recorder procedure on September 23. I chose not to delay it any further and proceeded with it. I dislike having matters linger over my head. It feels like everything piles up all at once, and it can become quite overwhelming. I was scheduled for a mammogram, but that will be postponed for about six months because of the implant. I am not ready to think about how a mammogram will feel to have that metal piece in my chest!
NOPE, nope nope...
NOT THINKING ABOUT THAT YET.
Wednesday marks the beginning of everything. I’m eager to start, but I have so many thoughts racing through my mind. I’ve reached out to all my ladies, and naturally, there’s all that last-minute chaos that drives me a bit crazy. I'm receiving text messages from Admin, reminding us about this and that. All I want to do is focus on studying the Bible. I understand, I understand that it all comes with the territory. Things usually get sorted out within the first couple of weeks.
The Patriarch Jacob walked with a noticeable limp, a symbol of his struggles. Though he didn’t have it all together, all the time, God used him in unexpected ways.
Today, I need to remember that feeling fragmented doesn’t stop me from walking with God, even if I'm limping. He still embraces my flaws, having borne them on the cross.
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I have found that it’s often through our deepest fractures that hope and grace shine the brightest. I used to tell my sons, during times when we struggled that this is when God performs His most incredible miracles, and He never failed us. In the face of feelings of inadequacy (BSF) and discouragement (Knee and Loop recorder) we can still find purpose, proving that we’re never beyond the reach of His divine love.
Until Next Time
Debby
