What I am learning about myself these days...
It's Thursday afternoon - the sun is starting to dip low in the sky, casting a warm golden glow through my window. I find myself sitting at my desk, fingers tapping away on the keyboard as I let my thoughts flow freely. I'll go back and refine my words later, but for now, I'm just letting my thoughts pour out onto the screen.
I wouldn't have believed it, if someone had told me last year that I would be actively participating in a huge ministry dedicated to supporting and empowering other women. "No, not me, God. I can't do that!"
When really, I was saying:
God, I don't trust you
God, I won't do that
God, I know better than you
I realize now that I have been closing myself off to my own spiritual development. I have always been cautious and reluctant to step out of my comfort zone and place my complete trust in the Lord. But God has known me from the very beginning and has been intricately involved in forming and shaping me, until my time.
Earlier this year and part of last year, I sensed a stirring within me that propelled me to make some changes, although I couldn't fully comprehend it at the time. I closed one blog and started a new blog from scratch - I knew I might lose some followers. We also made the decision to leave a church that didn't have a strong focus on supporting Israel and the Jewish people. Eventually, I found a new church that welcomed us, and I felt at home there. I got involved in a 9-week course on Jewish ministry and was later invited to join the Tikfah team. Tikfah, (which means "Hope" in Hebrew) is a ministry that organizes volunteers to serve and support the Jewish community within our area. It's been a rewarding experience being a part of this team. There are only a handful in my area. And then BSF.
It's essential for me to always examine my level of trust in God and my love for people.
There is a hurting world out there - if not us, then who?
The best thing I ever did was to turn everything over to God. Also the scariest.
ReplyDeleteSo true, Kathy.
DeleteIsn't it wonderful when you realize that God has led you to do something!
ReplyDeleteYes, it's very special.
DeleteYou've had so many changes this year! It's great to watch and a good lesson for me!
ReplyDeleteAnd not just me - my husband as well. God is definitely on the move.
DeleteI am glad that you found the courage to make changes - and that it has been and is positive for you.
ReplyDeleteI've always avoided major changes, so what has been happening is amazing to me.
DeleteI am also learning more as I read the Old Testament and the feast of Israel. I am looking forward to sharing this with my Bible journal ladies. My husband and I are going to a Jewish market on Sunday after church. They are closed on Saturdays for the Sabbath. I plan to get some Challah bread. I will post pictures on my blog after my study. I am glad you have more peace as you expand your mind to what the Spirit is leading. Have a great weekend!
ReplyDeleteMy husband has always been dedicated to observing the biblical Sabbath on Friday evenings. He used to lovingly bake challah bread every Friday, but now he only has the chance to do so once a month.
DeleteYou have had to make so many changes this year and I am so glad you took the leap of faith to do it. We all need to trust that God is putting us on the right path at the right time. Janice
ReplyDeleteGiven His nature, He cares deeply for us and desires what is best for us.
DeleteWhen God opens a door, it's an invitation to step into the unknown, Trusting His plan, even if we can't fully see what is ahead. I am so proud of you and for you, because you are acknowledging that God's vision is greater than yours for your life. You've Got this and I know the ladies in your group feel so very Blessed to have you leading them..
ReplyDeleteThe incredible thing is that I am still me, but I can see how I'm being guided and presented with opportunities that I never would have pursued on my own. I specifically prayed that I become less focused on myself and more open to embracing the influence of His Holy Spirit.
DeleteI find when you turn your whole life over to God things work out in the end.
ReplyDeleteSo true.
DeleteIf not us...then who?
ReplyDeletePerfect query..
I love everything about this post Debby, your transparency most of all.
Poignant Words.
Sue
Yes!!! Standing up and clapping, smiles. Wishing you a beautiful day my friend.
ReplyDeleteI love the way you put your words down, from the heart and they are truly making me ponder about my faith.
ReplyDeleteGod bless.
Debby,
ReplyDeleteGreat post...I am trying to do the same with getting more involved in my church....Still trying to find out what my path in life will be as a new Widow....Thanks so much for stopping by!
Hugs,
Deb
Debbie-Dabble Blog
Those who bless Israel are blessed. 💙
ReplyDeleteAs it is said in scripture! We all should be blessing Israel and the Jewish people!
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